2 things i learnt while broken hearted

...its been a while since 'that day'...

I'd been in a deep sadness and deep regret. I'd been trying to build my own self confidence again from the very beginning. In other words i could say i was going through a very difficult year of my life..

Imagine that u're now in my recent situation. Broken hearted. Dumped. A situation where you think u are a garbage and feel being trapped in a lonely and 'just wanna die' situation. Until you saw your parents cried and felt worry seeing their girl like this..saying to myself  I REALLY HAVE TO MOVE ON... for them...for myself...for Allah...

I have many people who have BIG love for me that I never realize before.. Providing all their 'ready to use' love, i'm so lucky that i have my parents who have shoulder to cry on... being protection for this fragile heart all the time no matter how far we were, no matter where i was. Friends who made me laugh when i was down. Made me stronger day by day. They deserve better me...

Yes, I still need improvement..of course I will still have chance to improve myself till i meet the one. The one who is the same with me later. A good moslem. And to be the same with him, surely I still need improvement. Allah wants me to learn quickly, this is His way to tell me, Because I deserve better...
إن شاء الله

dear afifi. thanks for everything... whatever happens i love you, just like what i said when we were together.. and now I choose to be happy with or without you. only Allah knows...

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