2 things i learnt while broken hearted

...its been a while since 'that day'...

I'd been in a deep sadness and deep regret. I'd been trying to build my own self confidence again from the very beginning. In other words i could say i was going through a very difficult year of my life..

Imagine that u're now in my recent situation. Broken hearted. Dumped. A situation where you think u are a garbage and feel being trapped in a lonely and 'just wanna die' situation. Until you saw your parents cried and felt worry seeing their girl like this..saying to myself  I REALLY HAVE TO MOVE ON... for them...for myself...for Allah...

I have many people who have BIG love for me that I never realize before.. Providing all their 'ready to use' love, i'm so lucky that i have my parents who have shoulder to cry on... being protection for this fragile heart all the time no matter how far we were, no matter where i was. Friends who made me laugh when i was down. Made me stronger day by day. They deserve better me...

Yes, I still need improvement..of course I will still have chance to improve myself till i meet the one. The one who is the same with me later. A good moslem. And to be the same with him, surely I still need improvement. Allah wants me to learn quickly, this is His way to tell me, Because I deserve better...
إن شاء الله

dear afifi. thanks for everything... whatever happens i love you, just like what i said when we were together.. and now I choose to be happy with or without you. only Allah knows...

pic : http://www.kirsty-yoga-marbella.com

destiny

Just cant resist these tears knowing that you will not be here and never be again...

#twitterstalkingisdisaster :x

random post on the very morning weekend

its work, you, family in my mind
just can not stop the brain to go through the past
and come back to the right track to the future
I do miss your kiss, hugs, and the way you stare at me

well, i deserve better person or better you someday..
its just so hard to have this messy memories in my head
i just wanna say sorry to people i know in this planet

sorry for being too nice, like what you said that day
sorry for being too good, like what you said that day
sorry for being too old, like what you said that day
and sorry for being faraway from you, like what you said that day

I do really deserve better person or better you someday...

ps : crying tough...but i believe im strong

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2EwViQxSJJQ

Be Here

I really wanna be the honey for you, my bee
I really wanna be the water for you, my flower
All I wanna be is just here beside you, and being all you need
And yes, I am here for you...

dedicated to my boyfriend, afifi... please be here and make things right for us...

My Mini Survey Note : Obesogenic Behavior (Part 2)

Hi Readers...
I've got good news (at least its good for me) : I'm done with the research and analyses, Yay!
So I'm gonna show you the result.

The result shows that there's no association between interrole conflict (work-family conflict) in working moms and their kid's obesogenic behaviors (behaviors which result to the increased risk of being obese/overweight). Some variables related to socioeconomic status are known to increase risk of having high obesogenic behavior level. Kids 1) with higher rate of family income and 2) Whose mother has professional or managerial position are at high risk to have high obesogenic behaviors level.
It's not really surprising, as many studies in Asian countries show that high level of family income will increase the likelihood to access supermarkets, animal-based foods, fast foods, etc. It can also reduce likelihood to be physically active because of vehicle or gadgets ownership (that may reduce energy expenditure). 

Well, from this findings, I strongly recommend to educate working mothers with high socioeconomic status to promote leptogenic (the inverse of the term 'obesogenic') behaviors to their children. Public health practitioner is one important part who can promote it (through health primary care parenting counseling/poster/participating in controlling the availibility of high calorie foods /promoting vigorous physical activity at schools).

:) 

Ahjussi

Someone is in a love bubble :p

Been thinking of this ahjussi...
we're in the same age tough...but this ahjussi is just, you know, so ahjussi...haha

So I dedicate this song for you My <3ly Mr Ahjussi, 아저씨 (J-Rabbit Feat Kim Jin-Pyo)

The Palace and Stuff

lovely palace, temple, and boy :D

Been recently admiring palace, king, history, and stuff esp after my journey. Enjoy :)